I don’t know what my tears are
Are they tears of joy? The joy that I want us to share
Are they of relief? That you have found another excitement
Are they of sadness? That you never seem to give one story right to the end
Or are they of jealousy? But I don’t know why I should be jealous in the first place
All I know is that my heart is heavy now
I feel like I am on the edge of a cliff
Yet I cannot seem to find the strength to go back to safety
I do not want to jump and ruin my life
Yet I cannot go back to where we used to be
Because I love you too much to want to be jealous
Yes, I want you to have that freedom and explore
I want you to be tender to soneone else and kiss her like you would do me
But how to do this without making a fool out of us?
So tonight, my tears are of…?
Happiness? Because I finally am sleeping in my bed
Joy? Because finally I do not have to worry about someone else’s happiness
Sarcasm? Because I realise I do give good or bad advice that I do not follow myself?
420? Because I smoked so much joint that my head feels like five giant heads
Well, I cannot seem to find a reason.
So, I cry these tears tonight. I know that tomorrow comes sunshine.
And I will hear the birds from the window. I will see the sun from my curtainless window and door
And life will be beautiful again.